Stinking thinking what's up with that?

I am very creative and that side of me needs to be attended to. It's a need that I tap intp quite often to use that extra energy that I have. Lately it's been alot and I notice that when I am feeling stressed I need a release.I've repainted the kitchen wall red..redesigned frames and the list goes on. In my mind I get bored and I think continuously of important things which I think they are and imaginary scenarios. Last year I had went a through a difficult year with my daughter moving out at 16 yrs old. and living on welfare my father diagnosed with cancer and me going back to school. It was too much for me to handle and I began having anxiety and panic attacks. This saga went on for a couple of months and I was miserable. My coping skills were low and I needed to find a way to be able to cope better. I took a cognitive program by Lucinda Bassett and I changed. My outlook changed and my perspectives. Here I was in school to become a life coach & I didn't even have my  own act together? I felt incapable of coaching someone else when I was the one in need of the help. I needed to coach myself and I did. I learned that my scary thoughts came from an avoidance of what I did not want to look at in my life. I am starting a new career and that is stressful. There are still times I notice myself thinking fearful scary thoughts? Why do we do that? Why would I scare my own self? It does not make sense but many of us do it and are ashamed of sharing. I dreaded the topic cancer because my father had it and what if? That was the question. I was constantly what-iffing the negative? Why not the what-iffing in the positive? I do that now and I make a point of it. I could be in the comforts of my own home and scare myself over stupid thoughts. Notice the thoughts and don't give them any value. Ignore them. They are like toys leave them in the box. The more you do that they may come still but let them pass just like a cloud in the sky. It works trust me. If you need to talk to someone do so don't let the thought stir in your head. Get busy do something to distract yourself.  Breathe and calm yourself down.
They are only thoughts they are not your actions.