Loving myself, naked and all!!



Outside show is a poor substitute for inner worth 
-Aesop

                                                                            
I remember just like it was yesterday going through puberty and developing into a young woman. Those years were incredibly stressful for me and trying to fit in.
As you mature and have children everything changes. Your body has changed from you bearing children and your body is no longer what you remembered.
You might be thinking well what's wrong then? I had
alot of remarks from my father about my weight.
I wasn't a plump girl but if I did gain and the same with my mother he made comments. Such as "big ass" or do you think you need that? It really made an impact on me and
still does now. I was always on a diet of some sort wanting to be rail thin and felt pressure from the magazines to be like that. It wasn't reality but it seemed that's what you needed to look like. New year's resolutions have come and again I vowed to lose weight. I am an emotional eater and when I stress food is my bestest friend. I have 20 pounds to lose and I am ready to take responsibility and action to do something about it. When I had my severe depression I was tinkering on the edge of becoming anorexic.
I was starving for control in my life and that was the one thing that I could. I could control my weight and how everyone seen me. I thought being that skinny and seeing my bones was normal. That isn't & I had to learn to love myself and be proud of who I am and all that I have accomplished in my life. I have had three children by c-section and stretch marks across my belly and that is okay to me. Those scars are mine from wanting to be a mom and I am humbled that I could. I marvel how my body is now at the age of 41. I am sure not as firm and tight like I was in my 20's but oh well. I like this stage I am a little plumper than I like but the weight will come off. My body is not a reflection of who I am in the inside. I am so much more than the outer part. I love to look at myself and say out loud five things that I like about my body. I like my eyes and so on. It helps boost my self-esteem and I feel good about myself. Finding ways to yourself where you are right now. Getting your sexy back is all in your attitude. Strut your stuff and give yourself some love. What do you love about yourself? Brag about it.